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08 August 2005
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Friendship Issues. if y0u guys d0n't want t0 read 0n t0uchy, em0ti0nal friendship issues, d0n't read okie. and t0 her specially, please read this, if y0u may. i d0n't want any m0re misunderstandings. i d0n't kn0w if what y0u wr0te in y0ur bl0g, is ab0ut me 0r n0t. h0pefully it is ab0ut me, s0 that i can stand up f0r myself. h0pefully it is ab0ut me, c0s that's what this wh0le entry is ab0ut. i d0n't kn0w why y0u have t0 say that i'm lucky t0 live such a life. c0s, i kn0w i'm n0t. (: maybe because y0u c0mpare y0ur life and my life. and it isn't right t0 d0 s0. i kn0w i'm n0t lucky t0 live this life. y0ur life may n0t be as c0mf0rtable as mine, 0r y0u 0utright feel that i am way much m0re blessed than y0u. but n0. y0u d0n't kn0w what g0es 0n behind cl0sed d0ors. (: behind this smile that acc0mpanies this face, lies al0t 0f hurt, ag0ny and pain that n0 0ne may ever kn0w. i d0n't sh0w it. i d0n't. i rather sh0w them a happy face, and enj0y with them. rather a sulky face and made them try cheering me up. n0. i d0n't want that. yes, i d0 cry in sch. al0t, unf0rtunately f0r this year. but i'm trying my best n0t t0. n0 0ne kn0ws what's happening in my life. yesh. life's n0t that bad f0r me. but d0 y0u kn0w s0mething? whenever s0mething bad c0mes my way, it d0esn't c0me al0ne. it brings a wh0le family with it t0 burden me. and it's happening n0w. ): i'm n0t feeling g0od, and i'm sure y0u're n0t feelin g0od to0. haish. my m0m kn0ws ab0ut this. rmb the night i called y0u? and y0u started t0 cry, and i did t0o? yeah. she was there, right beside me. she started asking ab0ut all this. i called with the intenti0n 0f saying s0rry that night. i called with h0pe 0f rec0nciling 0ur relati0nship. but, n0. y0u t0ld me y0u'll think ab0ut it. and i can see, y0u have n0 plans 0f f0rgiving me. h0nestly, i d0n't kn0w what i did wr0ng. h0nest. yeah. y0u did explain that night, but still, its unclear. d0n't tell me it's 0nly because we went t0 eat. surely that act is f0rgive-able right? and please, d0n't say that people like me. trust me 0n this. i never t0ld them t0 av0id y0u. my friends are y0ur friends to0. please, just because y0u and me are n0t 0n g0od terms, d0n't kill y0ur relati0nship with the rest. ): d0n't make me feel guilty. if y0u ever find a need t0 be with them, g0 ahead. i w0nt st0p y0u. d0esn't mean y0u're n0t friends with me, y0u can't have friends wh0 care cl0se t0 me. h0nestly, if y0u are angry with me ab0ut anything, i'm s0rry. this has drain my energy. i've no more energy for this. if y0u d0, 0ne day f0rgive me, i'm always here. fr0m n0w 0n, i'll make n0 m0re eff0rt. i'm tired. really really tired. i can't g0 0n. y0u just killed me. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
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ayn
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erdiah
ekah
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